I don't know why I'm mentioning this, but I just had one of the best dreams for as long as I can remember.
It was a bright, sunny day, and there were lots of trees and flowers around. I found a large cave complex that was completely suitable to house my entire family. It even had a small waterfall nearby. The whole experience was very calming. I think I was actually... happy!
Of course, then I woke up. I woke up around 4am I think. I wasn't at all upset. Rather, the first thing my conscious thought turned to was, "Ok, but now we need to figure out a way to weather proof the area, figure out a water and rain collection system, as well as a food scouting details, and a fire pit for warmth and cooking. Oh, and we also need to worry about predators such as wolves, bears, and most importantly, the Park Rangers."
Then I thought, "What am I doing? It's just a dream. But... I wonder why I had that dream, and why is it so calming to me?" Shifting in bed, I thought some more, "Hmm. Although I am very, very grateful to be able to live where I am, psychologically, I feel very displaced because I know this isn't my home. Maybe that's why I'm having this dream. A dream about finally finding a place of my own. A place that I can one day stretch out my legs and finally relax."
Wide awake now, I thought to myself, "Of course, all this will require money. Money to afford my own home." Which goes all the way back to why I am so money-driven to begin with. Not so much because I am greedy for money, but just, among other things, I yearn for a place I can finally call home.
Nice dream
February 3rd, 2010 at 03:10 pm
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I actually looked up rental rates for places in my condo complex the other day, and it's reignited my passion for my pie-in-the-sky goal, to have a vacation home somewhere in Europe!
I'm like you; this isn't going to make me take action on any of these impulses, but it does remind me why I'm so money-focused. Not for the actual bank figures, but for the freedom and opportunity they can provide in my life.
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