So, here I am contemplating what I want to do for the rest of the night, and at nearly 10pm EST, I'm thinking about just going straight to bed. But if I wanted to get out and do something real quick, well, I can do that too.
Now, here's the really funny part: As I am looking over my budget... yes, Friday night, single, can do whatever the heck I want, and what am I doing? Looking over my budget for the umpteenth time today. Nope, still hasn't changed from a few hours ago! 
But see, that's what occurred to me. Maybe the real secret to my frugality-- the real, dirty secret-- isn't so much that I am just motivated towards frugality, but....
I may have also forgotten how to spend money?
Does that sound crazy? Am I thinking too hard? Do you guys know what I mean by this?
Don't get me wrong. I think I can window shop as well as anyone. I can even "force" myself to buy something if it comes down to that.
But let's be honest with myself here. Ultimately, I didn't really get up and buy or do anything, did I? No. Instead, I'm sitting here trying to psychoanalyze why I am sitting here, looking over my budget.
So, I wonder. Have I really forgotten how to... *gulp* spend money? Have I, in some ways, also forgotten how to live a little and perhaps enjoy life? I don't know, what do you think?
Anyways, I'm going to think about it some more... as I head to bed while looking over my budget.
My dirty frugal secret
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maybe it will be in the form of a volunteership, and grow into a hobby (something like my art association relationship over the past 2 years) or maybe it will manifest itself from seeing a cooking show.
do you get what I mean? Follow your bliss when you find it (robert bly) and keep picking up the pennies on the ground!
(your comment on my 'new' penny post is my fav)
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My economics teacher always talks about how people will buy when the satisfaction they receive from a purchase exceeds the price they have to pay for it. Maybe us more frugal type realize that the satisfaction we receive from frivolous purchases isn't as much as we want it to be.
... and I do think you are over analysing it ...
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