Netflix
I finally signed up for Netflix. I knew that this on-demand viewing was the "wave of the future", but I had no idea that it was as sophisticated as it is! Seriously, Netflix has made at least 5 seemingly good recommendations to me!
The downside is that it does add an extra monthly expense to my budget. That alone has been the reason why I've delayed Netflix for so long. The upside is that it helps me keep me off the streets, and not roll with the bad crowds. That's good right? 
Heat
The heat is ridiculous. The room AC, so far, has only been able to cool off half of my room, but frankly, that's enough for me... because that's the side where I sit. Hopefully, the energy savings will be significant for the next billing cycle.
FireCalc
This is my current FireCalc projection. 
Of course, FireCalc is just a rudimentary Monte Carlo Simulator, and it's based on my current numbers, like... if I am attempting to retire right now, instead of some made-up projected number that I am expecting later on. I know that's not using it quite right, but I wanted to know where I stand right now, and that's as good of an answer as any.
On the upside, there's still plenty of time for things to improve (or muck up), so I'm not reading too much into it.
Blah
This may not be entirely financially-related, but although I am "only" 35, I am beginning to have those... thoughts. You know, the ones about, "Where I am? How did I get here? Where am I going?" thoughts. And I have to say, I'm honestly not all that happy with the answers to any of those kinds of questions.
Well, whatever happens to me, all I can do is the best that I can right? I also think that I'm going to be single for the rest of my life. I shouldn't say that because, when I was single, I never thought that I'd actually get married, and when I was married, I never thought that I'd actually get divorced. So, life is full of surprises, I suppose, but I don't know... I'm getting older. And I am beginning to wonder why anybody would want to put up with a guy like me.
Sorry to sound so down, but that's how I feel right now anyways.
And to be perfectly honest? I'm not sure if it would be an entirely bad thing to stay single. Yeah, I mean, secretly, everybody wants to find their "soulmate", but for all practical purposes, I don't have it that bad at all. So, I really can't complain....
I don't know, just rambling.
Sweltering summer quickies
June 19th, 2009 at 08:34 pm
June 19th, 2009 at 09:43 pm 1245444201
I got married late, 35!! And didn't even have kids till 39. Lessee, that means my kids will get out of college...scritch scribble scratch...when I'm 72??
Just keep on keepin' on.
June 19th, 2009 at 09:54 pm 1245444859
I think one of great tricks life plays on people is power of projection...
when we are feeling low, which is perfectly natural from time to time -not regularly, then our entire perception of our future becomes negative... for no reason based in reality or "fact"... it's like a drop of ink gets into the glass of water and discolors the whole thing...
The thing is... next week you may feel completely different... and your perception of your future may then be different..
We are all slaves to our feelings in this regard.
Maybe breaking this bondage to our up-and-down internal dialogue is one of the things the Buddhists you referred to before aim for ??
June 19th, 2009 at 10:31 pm 1245447084
You are really not alone! I struggle with this myself. Work is hard and my team dynamic is in a pathetic state, enough to make me depressed and not want to wake up in the morning to go to work and I see no end to it.
I am married for the second time but luckily it feels like my first. I remember feeling and actually believed that no man would ever want me after my divorce because of the experience I had to go through from the first marriage , in serious debts and being deaf on top it all. Well go figure; I am now happy in my marriage. But I am now older and still have no children. I wanted to be a young mom. I had two miscarriages this year already. For some reason, I think each chapter in life, we are always going to urge for something more try to fulfill new desires and fix new problems. If we were all happy in every way, maybe there would not be any motivation to keep going?
It's truly the journey and not the destination. But yes I admit, my husband and the passion to please God give me the strength to keep on going.
I guess this came off as a ramble as well! Sorry about that.
June 19th, 2009 at 11:09 pm 1245449341
And firecalc...ummm no idea what it is but its pretty.
June 20th, 2009 at 02:49 am 1245462582
June 20th, 2009 at 03:06 am 1245463612
Maybe you find someone, maybe you don't, but you still have to live with yourself so self reflection is not a bad thing. Just remember to not focus solely on your negative traits.
June 20th, 2009 at 03:54 am 1245466460
Gamecock, FireCalc is a simple retirement calculator, to see if your retirement money is likely to last.
Instead of me explaining it though, why not check out their website?
www.firecalc.com
June 20th, 2009 at 05:04 pm 1245513891
I think when you least expect it, you'll meet someone. "Why not me" is definitely a better thought than "why me". Stick with that for awhile.